YYYSaturday, March 01, 2008
"The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."- 1 Samuel 16:7
"but the Lord looks at the heart". Such a simple truth, so beautiful in its simplicity! I can really really feel God's unconditional love radiating though. It tells me that despite all my insecurities, all my fears, the million things I don't like about myself, all that matters to God is that I have a heart that seeks Him, a heart that loves Him.
And I really pray for the strength to just be God's little instrument in this world, if He so wishes it. Many a time I find the pressures of this world too hard to bear, and my internal battles too tiring to fight. I pray for the courage to let go of all of these (it's all self-centeredness, really), to live radically for God. I aspire to live like Mother Theresa did, always with a smile on her face despite all the dirty work she did, all the suffering she saw, and despite 50 years of having no God in her heart.
I don't know. It's easy to get all spiritually high and fired up when you are in church, or in prayer, or even when typing out a blog post such as this one, but then it has to come to an end, and its the real world again. Which is hard, because I guess I'm not all that in touch with God yet.
But oh well I shall end here then. Because all my blog posts always tend to revolve around these same few issues. And I'm still unsure about whether it is pretentious to blog about God like this even though He seems to think it is okay, and I like blogging cos it helps me organise my thoughts/ it feels quite natural, and I was very inspired by this blog I read where the person was super honest about herself. Yes alright so I shall go off and face the world with COURAGE, and go off and conquer some fears now (:
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