YYYThursday, March 01, 2007
I'd forgotten how important it was to think more about others than myself!
It's not only the right way, but the only way to live a sane life! Because I am always so self-centered and think about my life, my happiness, my problems, my worries only, everything that happens to me gets exemplified. So if something good happens to me I get really happy. But if something bad happens I get really upset.
Thinking more about other people makes everything seem less important. And actually our lives on earth really aren't that important in the way we think it is. It isn't about ourselves. Afterall no matter what we do or accomplish on this earth, we will all turn to dust (and mire!) eventually. It is about God and His plan for us on earth and about other people and their relation to that plan.
I am always so silly! I keep losing sight of this very important thing to remember! Because I get complacent and think I have gotten it right, so I and stop reminding myself of it, and before long I have lost it and forgotten it. Then I slip back into deep self-centeredness and the whole world seems to come to an end whenever something goes wrong in my life. But God does speak in amazing ways/ He plants ideas in our heads, so eventually I will remember again. It is such a tiring process though. Sigh. I pray this time I will hold on to this thought!
It's difficult to always remember to think about others too! I keep forgetting and lapsing into self-centeredness/self-pity/self-glorification(?). But practice makes perfect! I will have to keep practicing and practicing until it finally sticks in me and becomes second nature to me, yes!
My dad *might* have glaucoma which is a terrible eye condition which will inevitably lead to blindness (you can only retard it), so everybody please help pray for him! It's supposed to be highly unlikely, but he has to go for further tests because there is a slight possibility of it. It's so terrible to keep us in suspense, he will only be going for the tests in 2 weeks time :( I guess what will be will be.
Yay the weekend is coming! A week flies by so quickly in JC. Sigh the March hols are surely going to whiz by too. I shall end here, goodnight!
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