YYYMonday, October 09, 2006
Last night, after everyone had gone to bed (or so I thought), I decided to go downstairs to the kitchen to get a cup of water. To my surprise, I found my mother there at the kitchen table looking through my brother's psle science practice papers and taking notes. My brother had gone to bed an hour earlier, and his science paper was the next day, so why was she doing that? I asked.
My mother replied, in a surprisingly good mood given that she had been agitated the whole day at my brother's lack of motivation to study even in the middle of the psle period, and said, "There are still so many things he didn't finish going through. I am taking down the key points to tell him just before he goes to school tomorrow."
Aiyah it doesn't matter lah, I said. After all, what will be will be.
That was when my mother looked up at me and said, "I will do my best."
That was when I felt an overpowering sense of love. My parents love us all so much even though we have done nothing for them, and brought them only troubles and worries. It is such an unconditional love that we don't deserve.
I was smiling as I went back to bed feeling so loved :D
I used to think that a sign of a good relationship with God was to
feel Him physically. Through a sudden sense of peace perhaps, or through warmth or deep prayer.
Now I realise that there are many other ways to feel and to see God. Through my parents, for example. God is the Father of all of us, and he loved us so much that he gave his only son up so that we might have eternal life. Like the father of the prodigal son, He is always waiting for us with open arms, no matter how much we do not appreciate Him and cause Him much pain through our actions.
In the past I used to feel spiritually dry very often. Now I think, maybe it is only because I never looked carefully. I didn't see that every day, simply being able to wake up in the morning is God at work. I didn't see that the sun rising, the computer and the television working, the radio playing, talking, singing, running, walking- all these are possible only because there is God and He is alive and very present in this world!
Dear Lord, I LOVE YOU! Thank you for my parents! Thank you for Your wonderful love! I pray that You will open my eyes to You, for You are actually there, everywhere in my life, because You love me.
10:43 PM
