And then there is this part in the purpose driven life which bothers me.
"We worry when God seems silent on specific issues like "What career should I choose?". The truth is, there are many different careers that could be in God's will for your life. What God cares about most is that whatever you do, you do in a Christlike manner. God is far more interested in what you are than in what you do. We are human beings, not human doings. God is much more concerned about your character than your career, because you will take your character into eternity, but not your career."
It does make a lot of sense. But it bothers me because what I think it means is that God does not have a definite answer for everything in my life.
Which is kind of good because it means that we have free will. But I want God to tell me the answer when I don't know it :(
Simeon told me that all we need to know is that God has an answer. It sounded very reassuring when he said it, but sigh it stil doesn't answer all the questions I don't know the answer to :(
Haha these two are like my favourite topics. God + decision making and spiritual closeness with God.
It is also because I have a preoccupation with this decision making thing that I try to find coincidences and signs and stuff in my life. But I know they are most probably wrong guesses :(
I don't know. Maybe I am looking the wrong way. Maybe there are no answers. Maybe that is it, I should just relax and let God do the rest.
But I guess, whatever it is, I should just be thankful because I know that God exists, and that He loves me.
How far I have come! 1 year ago or so, I was still reassuring myself that God existed with the verse "blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe" (John 20). 1 year later I KNOW that God is the very present in my life, and that He who I live my life for. That surely is a big step in the right direction :D
So I shall take comfort in the knowledge that spiritual growth will take place with commitment and persistence.
When Jesus says "Come, be my disciple" I will be like Matthew and get up and follow Him (: (Matthew 9:9)
The bible says that to grow spiritually we must also "think the same way that Christ Jesus thought". (Philippians 2:7) SIGH. How would Jesus have thought if he didn't know what to do and God seemed silent? Maybe it is somewhere in the bible, just that because I don't know the bible very well I don't know.
Maybe maybe maybe.
Haha maybe I should stop rambling and go off now. Oh my it is 11.30 already I was supposed to have gone off at 11.
I think something is wrong with me! I must remember that my focus is always on GOD and everything else fades away in importance. The ultimate aim after all, is eternity.
GOODNIGHT WORLD! I pray that everyone will be able to go to sleep at peace with themselves and with everyone tonight. Amen!
11:11 PM