YYYSunday, July 30, 2006
Striping 2006 :(
My goodness when I read Yijun's blog entry and then all the emails from our batch on the yahoogroups I cried and cried and cried.
I think I'll never be able to put down in words exactly how much guides means to me. Because for one whole year, guides consumed my entire life.
It was so crazy. My entire life revolved around Guides. Every moment would be spent thinking about what guides things there was to do, that coming week's schedules, how to make guides more enjoyable etc etc. And in class Yijun and I would shout across the classroom- What to do in that extra 5 minutes? How to go about doing this? Have the schedules been approved? Haha I think the whole class knows whats going on in guides xD
But I learnt so much from this whole experience. Through this past year, I learnt so much about myself, about my strengths and weaknesses. You know at interviews, they always ask you about your strengths and weaknesses. I never knew what to say. As in I would say something that wasn't really really my strength/ weakness. But now I know (:
I learnt about people. About batchmates. About how guides wasn't about being all stressed out and trying to run everything on a tight schedule. Rather, just by coming to guides sessions with a BIG SMILE and HAPPINESS the mood of the whole session could be changed. I learnt more about people. About adults, about seniors, about juniors, about being decisive, about making WISE decsions and seeing what people were like. And this is turning out to be really disjointed and incoherent but AIYAH I really learnt so much so much!
And I hope that everyone who leaves guides at the end of 4 years will feel this way too. I really really really hope so! I think Guides is such a BEAUTIFUL CCA. Its really all about self-discovery and the development of everyone to their fullest potential. And that is why I get very upset when people say on their blogs they dont like guides. Because I am so sad that I haven't been able to, as a CL, show them the meaning in guides. If you are reading this and you don't like guides, do not give up! Come for guides with an open mind and soon you will see the value in it (:
Haha but then I know that there are many people who like guides! Sec 1s and sec 2s and sec 3s! (: And that makes me very very happy (: For the past year, I worked so hard for guides, just for all of you (:
SEC 1s: When I saw all you had done for Farewell as a batch, I was SO PROUD (: I think you all will go very far together! We can definitely see the potential in each and everyone of you (: Work hard and keep up the enthusiasm! You all will always have a very special place in our hearts, because you were (like mel and jo always say to our batch) OUR SEC 1s <3
SEC 2s: This year the CLs and our batch, we put in the most effort into your batch. Because we saw the hidden potential. At the start of the year we were very discouraged, because many sec 2s quit and the general feeling was that most of you didn't like guides. But we tried very very hard! Haha you have no idea how many hours we thought of interesting ways for you all to pass clauses! Last time all the clauses were passed using paper tests but you all the lucky ones who could pass by doing a book-on-head relay and by creating jingles (: Now, at the end of the year, I see how far you all have come and I'm SO SO HAPPY. You all are going to be the sec 3s now, and this means that you all have a bigger responsibility. Post or no post, you all have many many opportunities to shine this coming year. It will be an exciting year ahead, LOOK FORWARD TO IT! (:
SEC 3s: I HAVE FAITH IN YOUR BATCH! I think this coming year will be a great one (: You all are an amazing batch. From sec 1 all of you were already so bonded and enthusiastic. You all will do a GREAT JOB. Haha after all, look at you all. While my batch was so disunited at the start of our sec 4 year, you all are working so well together already. (:
MY BATCH: Haha I must say that our 4 years in guides were filled with obstacles. But we have emerged STRONGER and more united (: In our sec 3 year we were so disunited and demoralised. Everyone kept saying we couldn't make it. We started off as sec 4s hardly knowing each other (although we had been in the same CCA for 3 years already), and for most people, hardly entusiastic about guides. BUT WE HAVE MADE IT. (: We were so so determined to prove everyone wrong, to rise up to the challenge, for guides to be even better and funner with our batch as sec 4s. And I think, we did (: This year was such an eventful year. Haha so many tears, so much rain, so many scoldings and disappointments. But yet so much fun and laughter and joy as well (: Haha we are all very different people I must say, maybe that's why it took so long for us to come together. But in the end we learnt how to have fun together and how to stay happy even when everything was against us (:
We had a MSN group in sec 2, but it died. Our yahoogroup now is nearing our 1000th message, that's how much we crap (:
Ahh Krystal was so sweet when she said, "haha i live for my gmail now because i know everyday when i get home that there'll be a message from guides yahoogroup and it will be stg that will make my day and the next worth living for. "
AND AILEENCHUA! AILEENCHUA YOU MADE ME CRY SO MUCH!
"ahahah you guys described me in such a positive light. You guys mostly said that you were thankful for me being that high loud presence - but what you might not know is that
I'm only like that when you guys are around."
AND GIRAFFELOW. Who I never knew could be so sweet! (:
"i just wanted to say i never started peeling oranges with my bare hands until rural hike at the orange station, but now i peel them all the time.
i never knew i can listen to a song and dance so many times without getting sick of the song - just because i'm dancing with you people.
i never knew roll call could be so painfully agonizing trying not to laugh listening to the first coy PLs being niao-ed at by jiaying not to laugh and tuck in your shirts and pull up your socks and looking at michelle with her funny face taking attendance and yijun always walking around singing jj's songs for some funny reason.
i never knew i could feel so lost just without anyone of you. when the evil insect bit yijun during camp and made you cry so terribly i just cried too it was so terrible. and i never could have survived camp without all of you, everyone staying up so late and waking up so early to make breakfast.
i never knew doing proposals were so exciting, and i never opened my gmail the first thing when i got home, until we started planning rural hike.
i never found firelighting and tent-pitching and emergency shelter and rope ladder building and pioneering so accomplishing until we all passed pioneer badge together.
i never found banner painting and structure tying so enjoyable, until i did it with you all.
i never knew guides songs could be so touching until i sang it with you all. i never knew i could cry singing a song, until i was singing with you all.
i never knew i loved you all so much.
but now i know."
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I LOVE ALL OF YOU <3
I WILL MISS GUIDES :(
And even though I might forget most of this 50 years later, I will always remember, that there was a time in my life when guides was my everything, when I cried and laughed and cried somemore because of all 136 people in guides (: (Ahh I hope I got the no. right xD)
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